Nothing of utmost importance

I should try to make sure my strokes of genius make it here on this contraption. Maybe it will be better than Facebook because that just keeps changing, faster than people can get used to what it was. Rant ended.

Boys are stupid. Rant ended.

Work is, too.

Because a hiatus is nice ... or I plum forgot

I found my way to Indiana. Not exactly the South. Not actually anywhere near there. But it works for now.

Epic fail is the theme of most days. Other days it varies.

A long awaited time

So I'm scared. I'm pretty dang excited, but I'm scared. It's like the first day of high school all over again.

I have a job interview at The Journal Gazette on Monday and I have to impress all these people and not freak out.

It's like I'm totally excited and scared shitless at the same time.

Oh the places I will go

Where the world will take me, I do not know.

Let me just count them.
1
2
3
4
5
6
7
8

There are 8. 8. How can I possibly handle that many? When it rains it pours.

My heart is torn in three.

A part of me doesn't want to leave.

The rest of me doesn't really know.

I'll keep you my dirty little secret...

I really think that is how I am to a lot of people. I'm just some big secret part of their lives that they don't want other people to know exists.

I'm always just some girl. When do I get to be more than some girl? I'm tired of being someone's secret. I want to be someone's someone.

It's all just a waiting game now. Maybe I'll let this game decide...obviously it will, but where I end up will be only because of the game and not by my choosing. I'm tired of blaming myself for the course which my life has run...it shall now be something else...just so I can displace the blame elsewhere.

On a completely unrelated note, the world as become to reliant on technology that it's disturbing. Friend has become a verb because of Facebook. My wireless was out for a few days and people didn't even talk to me. They have my number. They could have called. However, they just wait until I get back online to my AIM to talk to me. Oh well.

Eleven applications later and I'm waiting. Arizona, New Mexico, Kansas City, Indiana, Florida, North Carolina, Colorado, D.C, Iowa, Louisiana. Who knows what will happen. I don't even know where I want to go. I'd like Phoenix, Kansas City or Miami, but only time will tell.

Through so many things, I will learn patience.

Just thoughts that are on my mind

They'll be in their vaguest form of course.


I'm not to sure about the odds of seeing them again, but I believe them to be low. However, if it is meant to be it will figure out how to happen.


I guess I'll spend tomorrow working on cover letters because today didn't pan out that way. I shouldn't procrastinate on this. I need to grow up. I actually just need to grow in so many ways. I'm ready.

I'm ready to find it. It being that dreaded four letter word. With this new phase in my life, I'm ready to find and grow and seek and explore and learn and fail and get back up and keep on going. I'm ready and willing for anything and everything.

I just wish myself all the best really. Keep my head up and stay strong.

Oh, the places you'll go

The places I may go are spread all over the place.

Ohio, Texas, New Mexico, Georgia, Iowa, Virgina, DC, Connecticut, Jersey, Tennesee, Indiana, Wyoming, Missouri, Illinois. Geez, I'm crazy.