Oh the confusion...

What's a person to do when everyone around them is letting them down and they can't trust a single one of them? What's a person to do when their entire life crumbles from underneath them and all of those other people aren't there to support the person? What's a person to do when they have to do everything on their own because they're always let down? What do you do when you are lied to by the one person that can give you exactly what you want, but don't necessarily need? What do you do when the one thing that made the most sense, no longer does?

I certainly don't know the answers. If I did, I would have my life figured out at this point. However, those things have to happen without rhyme or reason and we're left to fend for ourselves in a world that we're almost all convinced is out to get us.

The fairness, or lack there of, of life is astounding. A realization was made by myself and one of my co-workers that it's the bitchy women who get the guys and the friends that will do anything for them, but it's the nice people that, pardon my french, get completely fucked over by everyone?

I'm a girl who cares more about everyone else than myself. I will do anything for anyone pretty much no matter the cost to me. However, the acts are never reciprocated. I know there are people out there just like me, so, would it be too much to ask for some act of kindness to come from someone else other than myself? Is it possible for people to pull their heads out of their asses for one minute and help someone else?

I'm a strong person, so all of this I've so vaguely described, will pass. At this point, I'm better than I have been in a long while and that's thanks to no one and to everyone. I'm fine because I made myself fine and I won't give the credit to anyone else. You don't get the praise for the afterwards. If you weren't there when it was rough, you don't get to be there now. So, here's to me. Here's to 2008. Here's to the rest of my life.